imagine. dream. create.

Post #53

2011-10-09T12:06:00.002-05:00

Boy, it has been a while! I have been swamped with school and work, so this was put on hold for a while. I've also been busy with wedding planning, which has been an absolute joy!

Most of my belongings are packed in boxes for the time being, but I am hoping that I will soon be able to make some more post-it notes. I've learned that putting positive energy out in the world helps bring that energy full circle.

Have a great day!

Post #52

2011-01-15T22:53:00.002-06:00

I am reminded daily that the process of learning is lifelong. Some concepts are easy to understand, while some take some time and thought. Regardless, the process is really quite fantastic. Simple, maybe, but it shouldn't be taken for granted.

Post #51

2011-01-06T23:18:00.002-06:00

Wishing you a belated Happy New Year, folks!

It's hard to believe that it is already 2011, though I know it will be a great year! 2010 was pretty fantastic, as it was in that year that I found the one person that truly is my other half. I'm so blessed to have him in my life, as I am blessed to have the friends and family that support me daily.

I have created some new post-it notes that I will soon be distributing throughout the city (or beyond). About half of them are hand-written sayings or words of advice, which I'm kind of excited to get out in circulation. If you're just visiting my blog for the first time, the main reason for the blog is to sort of spread the love, in a sense. My first couple posts detail the post0it note project in more detail. The last several months have been very busy for me, so I haven't updated the blog much, but I want to get better at doing so.

If you have found a post-it note, drop a line and let me know what you thought. Better yet, pass it on if it moved you in any way. I just want to make the world a better, happier place...even if that means by doing something so small as leaving a few words on a post-it note in a bathroom stall or on a store shelf.

Embrace the new year!!

Post #50

2010-12-08T17:58:00.002-06:00

A new post is long overdue. I've been so consumed with school and work and trying to have a life that I've neglected to post for several months. Thankfully, the semester is drawing to a close and I want to be more dedicated to this project, starting tonight. I found a few of my post-it notes and plan on taking a couple to class tonight and leaving them around the building.

The holidays are a wonderful time to spread joy, as people are crunching numbers in their checkbooks to make sure everyone gets what they want on their Christmas list. I try to spread love on a daily basis, even if it means simply saying "hello" to a stranger. People should, however, be especially compassionate around the holiday season, as many people will likely celebrate having lost a loved one. Last Christmas was my family's first big holiday get together without my Grandmother around. While we we able to share wonderful memories, there were times when it wasn't easy. In short, be kind to everyone you encounter no matter what day it is. Love thy neighbor.

<3

Post #49

2010-09-18T20:35:00.001-05:00

Letting go is the beginning of a new life.

<3

Post #48

2010-09-10T23:39:00.001-05:00

You are not a robot.

Post #47

2010-06-24T18:39:00.001-05:00

It's never too late to smile :)

Post #46

2010-05-23T22:24:00.003-05:00

It always boggles my brain how calming art is. It isn't something I really forget, but I'm usually pretty surprised how quickly time can pass when I have some good music playing and a paintbrush in my hand (or some other supplies). I'm in no way trying to sound cocky. I wouldn't consider what I create to be extraordinary, but it brings an overwhelming calm to my entire being and I'm glad I have that little escape.

Summer is finally settling in. I used to really hate humidity, but I've grown to really enjoy the nighttime humidity for some reason. It can get to be pretty unbearable in the daytime (when its blazing hot AND humid), but at night it's somewhat relaxing. The moon isn't full tonight, but it's pretty bright and there were some fluffy clouds snuggling up by its light earlier and it looked pretty killer.

<3

Post #45

2010-05-22T21:13:00.002-05:00

Today was really one of the most spiritually enlightening days I've had in a while. A few things happened that reassured me that I'm doing exactly what I'm supposed to be doing and I feel very in tune with the world around me (and beyond). It's pretty spectacular.

I had a discussion with one of my aunts this evening and near the end of our conversation she said this to me: "I always said that the quiet ones would speak volumes." That was pretty moving.

Life is good.

Take care <3

Post #44

2010-05-02T19:49:00.002-05:00

A more personal blog, I suppose.

My world, as of late, has been flipped upside down in the most wonderful way(s) possible. I absolutely cannot even describe what feelings reside inside my heart, but I know it's overflowing with the most beauty I've ever been able to imagine. It's more than what I could imagine. Even the most "average" and "ordinary" things tend to look different to me recently. And I can't argue with that. I don't want to lose it, either.

I've learned that it's okay to let some things go. Sure, some things will always linger, but it's not such a bad thing to try to push them aside in order to make room for newer, more splendid opportunities.

Life is mostly about growth, I believe. We're really pretty similar to trees. We start out as a little seed and with some love, time, nourishment, etc. we can grow into something great. We can open our arms, like branches, and welcome whatever decides to reside in our shelter.

Anyway, life is good. Perspective has a lot to do with how you view your life as it is right now, and my perspective has been changing greatly recently. I've gained a greater appreciation for every person that enters my life, no matter how "insignificant" the encounter might be. Each experience changes our lives and it's our choice whether the experience changes our lives for better or worse. Being completely open to the beauty that is constantly surrounding us can really change our lives in the best way possible. I can honestly say that I even appreciate days that aren't so spectacular because they make me look forward to better things. I've always been somewhat aware of this, but I'm more acutely aware now. Nothing in life should ever be dismissed and each experience is unique and should be cherished.

I'm done rambling. The sky looks pretty stunning right now, so I think I'll sit outside and soak it in. <3

Post #43

2010-04-23T20:25:00.001-05:00

My heart is speaking a language that I don't know how to speak. I can, however, feel it. And it is so overwhelmingly spectacular. I just wish I could SAY how it is.

<3

Post #42

2010-04-14T21:56:00.004-05:00

I absolutely love this time of year.

People start breaking out their spring and summer clothing and the bright colors and patterns can really light up a room. The sun stays out longer, the birds chirp from early morning to late evening, and the earth seems to come alive again. I'm never really sure when it happens--the exact date the greenery wakes from its slumber.

With springtime comes renewal. I may take a lesson from Mother Nature and follow suit. Why not?

I realized tonight that I get the itch to rearrange my bedroom a couple times a year and it usually falls around major season changes. I moved everything around in my bedroom tonight, as quietly as possible, and it's a great feeling. It's a simple change, but the ball had to get rolling somewhere, right?

It smelled like rain inside my apartment and when I stepped outside, sure enough, the sky had a great show to display. There's some stunning lightning south of the city, so I think I'll sit outside to enjoy that before I scoot off to bed.

Take care!

Post #41

2010-03-22T21:44:00.002-05:00

I apologize for the terrible lack in posting. I lost my inspiration for a while. Found it and have been meaning to update, but I can be forgetful at times.

I'd like to dedicate this post to a guy I don't really know. All I know of him is this: he either works at the school I attend or he is also a student there. The reason I want to dedicate this to him is because he brightens my day a little. He will randomly stand in the doorway and open the door for people as they walk up to the building. It's so small, but it really does mean a lot. It really does put a smile on my face and I always thank him genuinely. He probably doesn't even know how nice it is to be caught off guard in that way. I made a mental note earlier to carry some of my post-it's around with me and the next time I see him I may give him one.

Whenever I see custodial staff working around my apartment building or the school, I make an effort to greet them and tell them to have a good morning or afternoon. We are humans and we desire to be acknowledged (even if it's just a smile). We aren't worker bees buzzing around in a specific order to accomplish tasks. I think people sometimes get too caught up in their lives that they dismiss others, especially custodial people. That may be a sweeping generalization, but I always grew up with my elders saying to appreciate custodial staff because their hard work usually goes unnoticed. Lets take that one step further and make an effort to appreciate ALL people. I can honestly say that I even appreciate people I may disagree with or can't get along with...each person I encounter, I have the great opportunity to learn from them and grow into a more well-rounded person. We can either embrace each others faults or dismiss them, ignore them, and remain stagnant. We're faced with that choice each and every day. It's when we embrace other people for who they truly are that we can learn to love.

That's all for tonight.

Take care!

Post #40

2010-02-04T21:51:00.002-06:00

I was told that if you sincerely compliment three people each day, by the end of one year, you will have made [more than] 1,000 people happy.

A "regular" customer at BB came in today and I noticed that her hair looked different. With intentions to compliment the color of her hair, I asked if she had dyed it. She hesitated to speak and notably became anxious about my comment. She finally said, "It's a wig. I was undergoing chemo-therapy for a while." I nearly started crying on the spot because I felt as though I had said something wrong. Instead of breaking down, I told her, "Oh, well I was going to tell you that your hair looks great!" Her face lit up at that point, but I still felt like crying. I can't even imagine having to wear a wig...trust me, I've tried. I know quite a few people who have or have had cancer and I've thought about what I would possibly be feeling if I had to deal with that.

I almost always try to see things as if I were in someone else's shoes. I try not to have a one-sided opinion on most things, and I like to be able to empathize. We aren't alone in this world, so we shouldn't have to feel like we are. It's a struggle, I know. Sometimes it's so hard to be optimistic and it can also be hard to feel like you aren't alone in your struggles. That's normal, I've learned. Life is a series of peaks and valleys.

Take care.

Post #39

2010-01-29T22:19:00.002-06:00

Puzzles were a childhood favorite. I learned a long time ago that when you forced pieces to fit together, at least one of them ended up fragile, torn, or completely broken.

Why is that simple fact so easily forgotten?

Post #38

2010-01-25T19:21:00.002-06:00

So, there's a free download on iTunes this week for a song called "July Flame" by Laura Veirs and it's pretty amazing.

In other news, I'll be purchasing a messenger bag shortly. Something I've wanted for quite some time. The best part is that an artist I've recently met on an art website will be personalizing it for me :)

"The best lyrics are the ones that give you goosebumps or make you cry in public or help you realize the answers." - Katy Perry

This is the point in the winter season where I start to feel a little too cooped up. I'm aching so badly to ride on the bike trails or wander around the parks of the city.

"I think I'll move to the country, somewhere you don't have to walk so far to be able to tell that the world is beautiful."

There was a point, recently, where I felt like the world was crashing down. But I have since forcefully taken control and things are slowly coming back together.

Life is, in some ways, like a puzzle...but if this were to be completely true, the puzzle pieces would have to be made out of some material that could easily be reformed. Many times, we fit with someone or something for only a short period of time and we then must be able to change and adapt so that we can fit somewhere else. But maybe that's why puzzle pieces have more than one side.

Anyway, I'll stop there. I have some homework I need to get done.

Take care.

Post #37

2010-01-21T21:50:00.001-06:00

Two things on my mind this week: honesty and freedom.

What do they mean to you and how might your views clash with the views of the masses?

Post #36

2009-12-19T21:35:00.003-06:00

Any advice for the "winter blues"? Post below.

Several people I know are slipping into that blues-y mode of thinking that comes along with winters in South Dakota (and several other states, I'm sure).

I'm currently working on making some "christmas" cards for random people. I don't exactly want to call them Christmas cards because they aren't at all Christmas-y. It just so happens that receiving a few cards in the mail put me in the mood to sort of pay-it-forward. I'm painting the cards and putting uplifting quotes on them. There are some "regulars" at Bagel Boy who mean a lot to me, and I want them to know that their smiles mean the world to me.

Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season!

Post #35

2009-12-12T23:43:00.000-06:00

Considering the fact that I've had somewhere around 11 blogs to keep up on for school this semester, I haven't really had the oomph to keep up on this one because I've been so bogged down.

However, the semester is nearly over, so I will try to get back to my usual updates soon.

<3

Post #34

2009-11-27T23:48:00.002-06:00

Why is it that we have to designate a specific day to celebrate things? Honestly, can't we celebrate daily? And by celebrate, I mean acknowledge how incredible life is (to put it as broadly as possible).

I have a lot to be thankful for. Family is the biggest thing I'm grateful for recently. They've proven to me that they'll support me through anything and love me no matter what. Can't beat that.

I'm looking forward to Tuesday because I'll get to see the residents at Good Samaritan. It was a little strange not seeing them Thursday. I have to have 30 hours of "service learning" for one of my classes and I chose to volunteer at a nursing home. I want to continue volunteering, even after this class is over. I get such an overwhelmingly wonderful feeling whenever I leave there because I feel like I made a difference in someone's life. I'd miss it quite a bit.

Take care!

Post #33

2009-10-05T23:39:00.002-05:00

I had the strangest yet most comforting dream last night. I miss my grandma. But I know she isn't far away. It's evident now. I hope I see her again tonight.

In other news, it's still raining like crazy here. I don't think it's ever going to stop.

I just found an old blog of mine that I had back in 2005, it's kind of weird to read. I'm glad I've changed. Obviously it's inevitable, but I was not a happy camper back then!

Take care.

Post #32

2009-10-02T22:22:00.003-05:00

I'm not sure how I feel right now. Very indifferent, I guess. It probably doesn't help that I'm so exhausted that I could have gone to sleep at 3pm. I had a bunch of things to get done though, and then I ended up watching a movie called Garden Party. Strange movie, but it's pretty good.

It has been raining for nearly three days now (if not a full three days, I lost track). Additionally, it's incredibly cold. Welcome to South Dakota, right?

I should go to bed. I don't want to get sick again (or make whatever it is I have worse).

I'm just ready for this gloomy weather to skedaddle (huh, that's actually a word, according to Firefox).

Xoxo.

Post #31

2009-09-25T19:39:00.002-05:00

Take a moment to think about, or write down, the things that make you smile. It can be extravagant or purely simplistic. Got it? Now keep those things with you at all times and think about them periodically. Smiling is contagious and it's something that should be passed around :)

Take care.

Post #30

2009-09-20T21:33:00.003-05:00

Sometimes life isn't what we expected, but that doesn't mean we need to resist change. Change is one thing that is certain in this life. So it's better to accept it than pretend it isn't going to happen.

I'm convinced my grandmother has become a monarch butterfly. Whenever I'm thinking deeply about her and her impact on my life and everyone else that she affected, a monarch flutters by and sticks around until my thoughts trail off to a different subject.

Speaking of which, there was a woman who came into bagel boy about a week before my grandmother passed away and we connected in a way, talked for a while...she was a memorable lady. Then I was sure that I saw this woman at my grandmother's funeral but I figured I would never know for sure, but she came to bagel boy today and I asked her if she knew Mary Helen and it turns out she WAS there and she's one of my cousin's best friends. It's such a small world, it's scary. But at the same time, it's comforting.

Take care.

Post #29

2009-09-11T13:46:00.002-05:00

Oh, the tangled webs we weave. So carefully crafted. Transparent. How does one break free?

Post #28

2009-08-05T22:17:00.002-05:00

The Stroller

While I sat in the reception area of my doctor's office, a woman rolled an elderly man in a wheelchair into the room. As she went to the receptionist's desk, the man sat there, alone and silent. Just as I was thinking I should make small talk with him, a little boy slipped off his mother's lap and walked over to the wheelchair. Placing his hand on the man's, he said, "I know how you feel. My mom makes me ride in the stroller too." The man's joyous laughter could be heard throughout the office.

-Author Unknown

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While I always have had a great love for the elderly, I appreciate them more and more every day. Sure, some of them can be quite grumpy (when they come into BagelBoy), or stubborn, hard of hearing, etc...but they really do offer something to the world. One thing I learn from them is to appreciate life as it comes.

I wanted to share a little story about my grandmother. She honest to goodness cannot hear worth a darn. And she knows it. Her most recent visit to the nursing home (due to a broken hip), resulted in a little interview with a nurse. In the interview the nurse asked her several questions about her daily activities (cooking, cleaning, etc). She then asked, "How's your hearing?" Grandma didn't respond and the nurse noted, "Not good." A little while later she asked, "do you have hearing aids?" And grandma said, "No, I have a lady that comes in twice a month." And she went on to explain what her cleaning lady does when she's there. My aunt and uncle broke down into roaring laughter and the nurse joined in. Grandma thought the lady asked if she had MERRY MAIDES. Cleaning ladies. It's so crystal clear that she cannot hear a dang thing, but she's so stubborn that even if she did have them, she probably wouldn't wear them. It's absolutely adorable though. I can totally see how a woman of her age (88), with her state of hearing could hear "merry maides" instead of "hearing aides." I mean, think about it...she doesn't even want to hear about hearing aides, why would she hear that? She's so cute.

Other than that, enjoy what you can while you can! Savor everything and don't think about what you don't have. Make the most of the things that are already in your life. But I don't mean to say "forget goals, get by with what you have." That isn't what I'm saying at all. DO set goals, have dreams, strive to be the best you can be. But in the meantime, quit worrying and live your life!! Life is too short to live it in a constant state of worry. And don't be aprehensive to try to reach those really big goals in life. Even if you come up a little short, at least you tried! Just live.

<3

Take care!!

Post #27

2009-08-04T23:30:00.003-05:00

I have the sudden urge to drive around town midday, holding random things out my window. And I would probably need to have my speakers blaring Ratatat. Maybe I'll go visit the dollar store tomorrow to pick up the items I'm imagining. Yes.

The weather has been gorgeous here lately, and I've been fortunate enough to be able to enjoy it fully. Aside from the mosquitos, nighttime is absolutely amazing. The moon has been mind boggling, especially tonight. And the sunset? Don't even get me started on how brilliant it was.

"Sometimes I laugh; you know it's all insane." - "Maddening Shroud", Frou Frou

I have recently been in the mood to draw, paint, write, or SOMEthing. I need to set aside a few hours to brainstorm, doodle, whatever it may be.

Pink Floyd is calling, hope you have a wonderful night.

Take care.

Post #26

2009-08-01T17:20:00.003-05:00

I adore The Lion King, so this quote is sheer brilliance.

"Oh yes, the past can hurt, but the way that I see it you can either run from it, or learn from it." - The Lion King

The summer is really flying by, isn't it?

Hope everyone's enjoying themselves!

Take care!

Post #25

2009-07-07T00:46:00.003-05:00

"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: decide what you want." - Ben Stein

We are in this life to learn and grow and we do so my interacting and engaging with people. Bridges don't need to be burned. Feelings get hurt, hearts break, we depends on others to rassure us that life does, in fact, go on. There is plenty of life to live. And plenty of people to help us reach our goals in life. It's funny how we have life goals. We have them because we believe they will ensure our happiness, which, if given the right goals, they will. But we can't let anything get in the way. Life is mostly good. Perspective is important, yes. Support is so very vital if we want to be happy. Even if that means you have to support yourself. Keep your eyes and heart open. Look out for youself prior to anyone else. Once your feet are on the ground, help the people around you. Be a friend to anyone you meet. They're fighting to live, too. And we're all in this together. We were put on this earth for a reason. So look out for each other because we all affect one another, whether you believe it or not.

"Live and let live!" [Please look this quote up on Wikipedia, it's pretty interesting. It was an important phrase in WWI.]

"If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it." - Mary Engelbreit

I have a pocketful of reasons as to why I feel the way I do, why I am the way I am, and why I do what I do. Don't you?

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go." - Author Unknown

Take care!

Post #24

2009-06-22T20:56:00.003-05:00

Ever think you've gotten more than you bargained for?

In an attempt to understand a relationship that was seemingly crumbling, I learned a great deal about myself. And there are some things I need to change.

Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene. - Arthur Christopher Benson

Granted, its always good to learn about yourself (and others) and strive to constantly improve yourself...but I can't believe I was so blind to how I was acting. Taking a step back, I see how ridiculous it was. And I've been there before, several years ago, but I forced myself to change because of how destructive I was becoming. I could feel myself slipping back into that but it was like I completely lost control and slid all the way back down the mountain I worked so hard to reach the top of.

I am, however, determined to reach the top again. I've done it before and I can do it again.

I don't have nothing to regret at all in the past, except that I might've unintentionally hurt somebody else or something. - Jimi Hendrix

On a different note, my vacation was fantastic. I didn't want to leave, as that meant I would have to face reality again. But I do feel much better, mentally. Ready to take on the obstacles that are in my way at the moment. Camping is so amazing. Getting so close to nature again is really refreshing. It's funny though, how we have houses and cars and the like...yet we will pay money to sleep in a tent on the ground. It's totally worth it though. There's something quite special about getting back into nature like that.

I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man who had no feet. - Ancient Persian Saying

Take care!

Post #23

2009-06-10T00:22:00.002-05:00

I haven't updated too terribly much lately. I'm hoping that after my vacation, I'll have a new outlook. Granted, I still have a positive attitude (most of the time) and I greatly enjoy simple things. But I just don't feel inspired to update this. I'm definitely in another funk. And that happens, its normal.

And honestly, numerous times throughout the day I could totally have awesome posts. But I don't like being on the computer much longer than I "need" to be...and when I have sparks of inspiration, I'm not by a computer. I should start writing these things down again. We'll see.

I know there's something waiting for me a thousand miles away. See you soon. Clarity is what I'm looking for.

How's everyone else doing?

Post #22

2009-06-02T17:45:00.002-05:00

Sometimes I can't help but laugh at myself because of the odd things I notice throughout the day.

I was just cruising down the street today and I saw this guy in his car, totally rocking out. I immediately started going through the radio stations to see what he could possibly be listening to. The station that I found that seemed to match up was pretty humorous. Some bubbly, pop music. Judging a book by its cover, it shouldn't have matched up as well as it did. Regardless, I couldn't help but cheese out. I'm probably that girl everyone points and laughs at because of how goofy she looks driving solo.

My mom found a photo of me when I was just a little tyke...I was wearing these SWEET sunglasses from the 90s. You know, the ones that are black framed but the bows are neon? Yyyeah. Anyway, I was telling her how much I wished I had a pair these days...and oddly, when I was shopping today I found a pair. Neon sunglasses, FTW: http://www.lambstore.com/sunglasses/pics/neon.jpg

"Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things." - Robert Brault

Take it easy.

Post #21

2009-05-26T22:00:00.002-05:00

Scientists have recently been attempting to create a drug that will erase bad memories from your brain. I watched a TV show about it a few weeks ago, and read an article not long ago.

http://www.healthkicker.com/702131124/delete-bad-memories-from-your-brain-cool/?page=1&jump=1487000976&leftcmt=1#1487000976

Honestly, this sort of thing terrifies me.

"Its amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take." - Nora Roberts

That's all for tonight.

Take care.

Post #20

2009-05-26T20:40:00.002-05:00

We live in such a "fast food", fast-paced society. Ironically, we spend an incredible amount of time waiting.

My question to you is this...what are you waiting for??

Post #19

2009-05-19T10:29:00.002-05:00

A friend of mine put a list of lyrics together that he found to be inspiring, moving, etc. One of them stuck out quite a bit and he asked me to explain why. I'll copy/paste the email below. This isn't a cop-out post...I'm not posting this because I can't think of anything to write. I'm posting because I can't stop thinking about it. So, here goes...

“Another pill I’m to consume to make me learn to feel again is followed by another one to make me lose the same.”
(Fuel – "Solace")

Alright…basically I just feel like this lyric screams so much truth about the society we live in (and possibly other societies, I don’t know for sure though so I can’t really speak for the world as a whole).

It reminds me of the fact that anti-depressants are one of the most highly prescribed medications in the U.S. Here’s a link to an article about it. I’m not just pulling that out of my ass :]

http://health.howstuffworks.com/health-illness/treatment/medicine/medications/antidepressant-most-prescribed.htm

SO. When I think about THAT little fact, it makes me think about how it seems like anti-depressants sometimes are a cop-out. Granted, some people TRULY need them because they have a chemical imbalance in their brain that can really only be fixed via medication. But something tells me that not all the people who take them truly have a chemical imbalance. I feel as though sometimes doctors don’t want to deal with people’s issues. They just tell them to take a pill and the pain will go away. The sad thing is, when the pain goes away, so does the happiness. I have had some people tell me that when they take anti-depressants, they are never really happy but also never sad. They just go through the day on auto pilot…without feeling a full range of emotions. And that’s really sad to me. Emotions are beautiful, in my opinion. It lets us know that we’re still alive. We’re still human. Weakness is not a bad thing, but I wish more people would see that. And I also wish everyone had at least one person they could completely confide in. I’m a big believer in the idea that simply having someone you can talk to, who won’t judge you, who won’t tell you what to do, etc. is very beneficial. I know not every doctor is the same, but from what I’ve experienced, they just push you off to another doctor or to some “magic pill”. They don’t want to deal with it. They have bigger fish to fry. The more patients they have, the more money they’ll make. The more money they make, the happier they think they’ll be. I went to a doctor a couple weeks ago and I waited for over an hour. When I actually saw the doctor, it only took about fifteen minutes. If that’s not ass backwards, I don’t know what is. ANYWAY…the lyric just reminded me of pharmaceutical companies/doctors/etc. People mistake sadness for depression and think the only way to get well is to take a pill. But often times the pills just mask symptoms and help people get through their days without feeling. Feeling is a natural, human emotion. We need to get to the ROOT of the problem, if a person is really depressed (or even if they’re “just” sad). We would have a much happier world, I think. Makes me want to be a therapist, honestly. But I don’t know if I could do it long-term.

For now I’ll just continue trying to slip happiness into the world by doing little things.

Post #18

2009-05-06T22:24:00.002-05:00

The way you choose to think can really, quite drastically, affect your day. I speak from experience. I was stuck in this rut of negative thinking, worrying, and the like. Therefore, I was in this constant state of...I'm not even sure how to describe it. But I was literally making myself miserable. I forced myself to see the other side of the coin, and its like the heavens opened up and angels began to sing...what a difference.

"If you don't get everything you want, think of the things you don't get that you don't want." -Oscar Wilde

Thoughts are more powerful than you can even begin to imagine. Really be careful what you allow your mind to dwell on. Let the negative things go and be open to the beauty around you. Its something I have to remind myself of nearly every day. And trust me, I know how somedays it is kind of a struggle to push beyond the negative things.

"Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same." -Francesca Reigler

Also, be aware of what you're listening to and watching. Music and television have a great effect on what you believe to be true. I may elaborate on that some other day. I don't feel the need to explain it more thoroughly though. I think it's pretty self explainatory...if not, let me know.

Having changed my way of thinking, I've noticed a number of highly amusing things around town. I saw an older gentlman washing his car this evening...he was wearing goggles. I saw a young child, sitting in the back seat of a car, holding his little arm out the window...he was holding a beautiful feather, allowing the wind to lick it...I was just as fascinated as the little child was :)

While running errands, watching all of these strangely amusing events, I got to thinking about how strange it is that each and every car is like its own little world. Think about it...they all have their own music (or lack thereof), conversations, scents, "climate", etc. Everyone has their own agenda. Where is everyone going?

With that, I am going to get some sleep. I've been awake quite long enough for today.

Take care.

Post #17

2009-04-28T18:57:00.002-05:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been pretty busy lately and had quite a few things weighing heavily on my mind.

The latest YeahYeahYeahs CD is pretty fantastic. Check it out. My favorite track is currently "Skeletons."

Other than that, I don't really have much.

Take care.

Post #16

2009-04-17T22:50:00.003-05:00

A little girl, probably around 6 years old, gave me a tip yesterday. A whopping ten cents. I couldn't help but giggle and cherish that darn dime because of how proud she was to give it to me. Absolutely precious. Children see the world in a completely different light.

It was a beautiful day today. And tonight was nothing less than wonderful. So I set off, pocket full of sticky notes and chalk in hand. I walked for forty-five minutes, stopping every once in a while to either write a message on the sidewalk or leave a sticky note for someone. I ended up using almost a full stick of chalk. And I got seventeen sticky notes out there!

I've been really overwhelmed lately, just with many different things. But today I let myself let those things go (at least a little bit). I realize now that I was trying to have too much control over each obstacle...sometimes it's more effective to just sit back and watch how things work out. I was trying so hard to solve everything at once...therefore not being able to provide enough energy to even attempt to problem solve. I'm not saying to ignore life's problems. They need to be given attention; but don't dismiss the life that's right before your eyes just waiting to be lived.

"He who angers you, conquers you!"

That quote seems pretty versatile. Not only could it mean that a person who makes you angry conquers you, but I also take it in a way that applies to the previous paragraph. Anything that you give attention to that takes away from your positive energy has, in a way, conquered you. I know sometimes it's easier said than done, but if at all possible, try to learn how to let things go. Focus on positive things, and positive energy will be returned. I speak from experience.

A shout-out goes to Shana, for being my inspiration today! I love you! <3

"Friendship is one mind in two bodies."

Take care!

Post #15

2009-04-16T21:33:00.000-05:00

"Replace the fear of the unknown with curiosity."

That is all.

Take care.

Post #14

2009-04-14T19:41:00.003-05:00

"You still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want. There's still a lot of good left in the world." - The Outsiders

With summer just around the corner, I think I will soon purchase some sidewalk chalk and write messages around town that way (in addition to my sticky notes). While at work today, I got the urge to use sidewalk chalk after I was doodling on a coworker's tab.

Speaking of work, a lady that comes in nearly every day pulled me aside today and asked me what my name was. I told her, and she then went on to say how much she appreciated how kind and patient I am whenever she comes in. She said she loves how personable I am and it means a lot. It was awesome. It's great hearing that.

"How do you understand how anyone becomes who they are? You have to go back to the past... every moment is connected to a million other moments."

Take care.

Post #13

2009-04-13T21:23:00.002-05:00

I still have oodles of post-it notes that I need to scatter across town. I need to get on that. I have a few places in mind. I'll do some tomorrow. One of these nights if I decide to go for a night run I will probably take some with me and maybe cheer up the mail-[wo]man. I really hope this project is doing some good. And I hope it catches fire soon. Pass it on, people! :] To anyone! I know I haven't told many people, but that will soon change.

"The coast disappeared when the sea drowned the sun
And I knew no words to share with anyone
The boundaries of language I quietly cursed
And all the different names for the same thing."
-Death Cab For Cutie

I had a discussion with a friend this afternoon about how it's so silly that humans have such a hard time being honest. Honest with ourselves, honest with our loved ones, even with strangers. Why do people find it so difficult?

I understand that people are terribly concerned that they'll be judged based on what they say and how they act. But wouldn't it make life a whole heck-of-a lot easier if we could just be honest from the get-go?

I do realize that it's not a perfect world...but I also do realize that we're evolving.

Our time is now, and each and every day we have a chance to make an impact on the future.

Be honest.
Be loving.
Don't fear.
Ask questions.
Find answers.

"Life is good. Everyone just overreacts. Even me." - Postsecret

Take care!

Post #12

2009-04-11T16:57:00.002-05:00

I absolutely love people who are just OUT THERE. Those people that are so unique and so terribly "against the grain" that you can't help but gawk.

I was driving down one of the busiest streets in the city today and some kids had a mannequin head somehow attached to the roof of their car. Dark hair blowing in the wind, straight faced, music oozing out of the windows...ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC. I was laughing so hard that I was crying.

More people need to be like that. Just dare to be different and don't care what people think...although I'm assuming these kids were doing it to get a rise out of people. Either way, it made my afternoon a little more cheery.

Anyway, have a splendid weekend!

Take care.

Post #11

2009-04-07T20:21:00.002-05:00

"Your character is based on what you stand for.
Your reputation is based on what you fall for."

Think about that for a moment.

Take care.

Post #10

2009-04-05T21:44:00.003-05:00

"You've got your whole life to do these things."

Why are we all in such a big rush? Honestly. Everything we do, we feel like it must be now. We want our problems solved right now, we want our food now, we want our fun now (without the consequences). Heaven forbid we have to do a little waiting and really learn to appreciate things a little bit. We're a "fast food nation," and I feel like it applies to so much more than just food.

Take a look at our prescription industry. Anti-depressants are one of the most highly prescribed drugs. Why is it that we feel that it's okay to treat the symptoms and not the causes of so-called depression? If we could face ourselves on a daily basis, and learn to be able to depend on people to help us through our lives (and also learn to be the person that people can depend on), I feel like we would be in a much better state. I just wish that doctors would give their patients the time of day. These people who seek medical help, for ANY issue, also need to be given the doctor's full attention. Unfortunately, it seems as though doctors are only concerned with gaining more patients in order to keep the business alive. I think we need more doctors with a holistic approach to medicine.

And as for fast food, I don't know if I should really open that can of worms. I will say, however, that our bodies weren't made to digest such chemically processed products. I'm not perfect, so I sometimes (very rarely) will be in a pinch and consume this "food." But it leaves me feeling so terrible, I don't feel like it's even worth it. Bleh. What are your thoughts on fast food?

"The world will try to tell you who you are until the day that you tell the world."

Another thing I have been thinking about is college. While it seems as though the rumor is that "you can't make a decent living unless you have a college degree", for some reason I can't help but think that some people just aren't cut out for it. And I'm not saying that negatively...just factually. I'm struggling a bit with the idea of going back to school in the fall. It just suddenly does not feel right...at all. I was a little excited a couple months ago, but the more I think about it, the less I want to go. I just feel like I have been so rushed from the minute I set foot back at home, in October. And if I'm not really ready, then I more than likely won't excel. And I really don't feel like wasting more money. I need to make a final decision soon though. VERY soon. And it's really stressing me out, which almost reinforces the idea that I need to take some more time off. Advice?? :]

"Your eyes must do some raining if you’re ever going to grow."

Take care.

Post #9

2009-04-04T21:34:00.002-05:00

"Don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars."

Today hasn't really been too impressive. But like I said in a previous post, there is no problem with having a few cruddy days. Having a few rough days here and there really do help us to appreciate our good days. So, really, I am thankful for the days that leave me feeling gloomy...and I can look forward to better days. When you have an attitude like that, it's hard to get really down. You will always have something to look forward to.

"Sure, the world is full of trouble. But, as long as we have people undoing trouble, we have a pretty good world." -Helen Keller

On a different note, have you ever had a complete stranger come up to you because they're absolutely convinced that they know you? It's pretty amusing. A lady was really staring me down, studying me and she finally said that she was sure that she knew me. We went through a whole list of ways she might know me, and she got pretty worked up about one of the places, saying she LOVED it there. But that wasn't it. I still am unsure of how she convinced herself that she knew me, but I think things like that are awesome. For all I know, she could have just seen me around town or something. Still, its a great feeling when you can somehow connect with people...no matter how "odd" the situation may be.

Any person I happen to bump into, I make an effort to make sure they know that I know they exist. If that means just smiling, complimenting them on something, asking a silly question, stating something painfully obvious (about the weather or something similar), etc. I know how good it feels to have someone acknowledge me, so I honestly do make an effort to "pay it forward."

Why go through life without making connections? We are all connected in one way or another, we can't deny that. To deny that we're connected would be almost like denying our own existence and impact on the world. Additionally, going through life without connections would make for a very lonely existence. Reaching out to people can be a challenge, but it's so
terrifically rewarding.

We have the power to change lives. Everything we need is at our core. We have the tools, it's just a matter of getting them into working condition. Together, it's possible. We are not alone.

Take care!

Post #8

2009-04-03T17:25:00.004-05:00

Since when do we need Hallmark cards in order to get our point across to people? Hallmark's most recent commercials boast that with their cards you can "say what you need to say." Is our society really that shallow, or are we afraid? Perhaps a bit of both. We're such a consumerist society that we'll buy into nearly anything, hoping and praying that it will be the answer to all of our problems.

We should be unafraid to show our true feelings, without the aid of a greeting card.

"Stand up for what you believe in, even if that means you stand alone."

Give your ears a treat and let them listen to "They" by Jem. Good stuff.

"Why, oh why, do I struggle every day? Cuz I'm living life in the world's way!?" -"Believe", by Solution.

Take care.

Post #7

2009-04-02T20:51:00.004-05:00

"Love forever, love is free."

I really need to get more of my sticky notes out in circulation. I have so many made, its kind of silly. I haven't really gone anywhere recently though...well, not anywhere that it would be appropriate to leave notes. Although, what really constitutes someplace as being "appropriate"? Maybe I just made that up. I probably shouldn't discriminate against certain places. I did realize one little problem with this project though. My target population leaves men out, for the most part. I generally leave the notes in restrooms, and I obviously can't leave them in the men's restroom. I'll figure something out. Or maybe the women who find them will pass them along to the men in their lives. I don't mean to leave men out though.

On a different topic, being nice to people is a great feeling. And going out of your way to be nice to people is an even greater feeling.

I'm really excited for the weather to continue to get more beautiful. I am psyched to be able to get back to my routine of biking to the Falls several times during the week. I think it's about 12 miles from the park I start at, and its great to clear my head and do some thinking. I usually bring a notebook along so I can jot things down as I go. I biked 4 miles today but I got really cold and it was getting dark so I didn't stop along the way.

"There's a reason why two people come together and stay together; they both give each other something no one else can."

<3

Take care!!

Post #6

2009-03-30T21:09:00.003-05:00

"It's a perfect day for a perfect day!"

I don't have much to say today. I know for a fact that some good has come out of this project. I've only had the project in the works for a short amount of time but it is such a wonderful feeling getting positive feedback.

Additionally, you should all check out "Breathe In" by Frou Frou. It's such a beautiful song. The entire album is really great. Imogen Heap's albums are pretty fantastic as well. :)

Take care!!

Post #5

2009-03-29T19:46:00.011-05:00

Every single day we have the opportunity to choose whether we want to be happy or not. WE decide how things affect our mood. Each moment is a chance to change the course of your life. What you do with it is up to you. You can seize the great opportunity or let it pass you by.

"Happiness is not a destination. It's a way of life."

Obviously there are other things that factor in. And somedays it's alright to have a downright crappy day. Because without those bad moments, how are we supposed to appreciate the beauty that is constantly flowing around us?

Take care.

Post #4

2009-03-27T14:51:00.003-05:00

"Don't think too much. You'll think your entire life away. Just close your eyes and follow your heart. I promise it knows the way."

It's human to over analyze nearly every aspect of our daily lives. Perhaps it is part of our struggle to understand ourselves and the world around us. Who are we? What are we here for? Why do we do the things we do? Why did this certain event unfold in this matter?

But here's a bigger question, why can't we just accept the way things are and continue on with our lives? Why do we have to ask so many questions, causing worry and anxiety? Can't we just be happy with what we have?

I ran across a quote several months ago that said something about how "the fact that we're still standing at the end of the day is reason enough to celebrate." There is some truth to that, but that means that we're just SURVIVING...why not fight to THRIVE in our daily lives? Has the world really made it THAT difficult for us to THRIVE?

Get rid of the garbage in your life. Do some spring cleaning and figure out what you really need in order to be happy. If you don't take care of yourself, how are you ever going to be able to worry about anyone else? To be fair, you must know yourself before you can really invest in someone else.

Anyway, I apologize if this isn't as uplifting as you would expect. It's just something that's on my mind.

Take care.

Post #3

2009-03-24T17:17:00.003-05:00

Hello!

I am in love with this video. It's so moving. Please watch it. It's less than two minutes long, and it's beautiful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2hWcZlrEss&feature=channel_page

This video is also pretty fantastic. The same girl that made the previous video did this one. Just over one minute, and immensely thought-provoking. Give it a chance.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krgCwQbNO9k&feature=channel

Anyway, I gotta run...but I thought I'd post a quick update. Hopefully my notes are reaching people! I have a few floating around town. Let's get this ball rollin'!

Take care.

Post #2

2009-03-21T23:40:00.002-05:00

I have yet to get my post it notes out. It's not that I haven't had the opportunity to...because let's be honest, I have. I just keep forgetting that I have them with me. I'll make an effort to post a few tomorrow.

“Do what you can with what you have, where you are” – Theodore Roosevelt

Take care.
<3

WELCOME!

2009-03-20T15:07:00.001-05:00

Hello there!

So, I've created this blog, not for myself. But in order to create a better world. Trust me, I know how cliche it sounds for me to say that I want to change the world. But I really do. And it's not that I want to do something HUGE. I just want to be able to do a lot of little things that can, in turn, cause a big change. What I want for the world is love. Whether that means helping people learn to love themselves, love others, or share their love. Love really IS powerful, but don't be afraid of it.

I've also started writing little quotes, sayings, lyrics, etc. on sticky notes and whenever I go anywhere, I take them with me and leave them around for people to see. I can only hope that someone will be inspired by them. If one person sees my notes and passes it on, it can reach a whole network of people. And that's what I want, for people to be inspired and pass that inspiration along. We are not alone in this world, I assure you.

I try to censor my notes so that they will not offend anyone. They're meant to be uplifting and thought provoking, not upsetting and offensive. So, I apologize ahead of time if I happen to offend anyone. I only want love to enter your life, promise.

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Here's a taste of what I put on the sticky notes...

"I know who I was when I got up this morning...but I think I must have been changed several times since then." - Alice In Wonderland.

"No one is perfect. But we are all beautiful because of it. I don't want to be perfect. I want to be me. THAT is what it's about. Individuality. Embrace it." - Suzanne :)

"Be thankful for each and every moment."

"If you're lucky enough to be different from everybody else, don't change."

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I'll post more later, but that's just a little sample of what's going to be going around.

I'll try to update at least a couple times a week. Once I get more notes out, I'll try to set a schedule for myself to update. So check back soon, and tell your friends about the site. Also, feel free to comment - I'd love to hear what you all think.

Take care.