Post #24

Ever think you've gotten more than you bargained for?

In an attempt to understand a relationship that was seemingly crumbling, I learned a great deal about myself. And there are some things I need to change.

Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene. - Arthur Christopher Benson

Granted, its always good to learn about yourself (and others) and strive to constantly improve yourself...but I can't believe I was so blind to how I was acting. Taking a step back, I see how ridiculous it was. And I've been there before, several years ago, but I forced myself to change because of how destructive I was becoming. I could feel myself slipping back into that but it was like I completely lost control and slid all the way back down the mountain I worked so hard to reach the top of.

I am, however, determined to reach the top again. I've done it before and I can do it again.

I don't have nothing to regret at all in the past, except that I might've unintentionally hurt somebody else or something. - Jimi Hendrix

On a different note, my vacation was fantastic. I didn't want to leave, as that meant I would have to face reality again. But I do feel much better, mentally. Ready to take on the obstacles that are in my way at the moment. Camping is so amazing. Getting so close to nature again is really refreshing. It's funny though, how we have houses and cars and the like...yet we will pay money to sleep in a tent on the ground. It's totally worth it though. There's something quite special about getting back into nature like that.

I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man who had no feet. - Ancient Persian Saying

Take care!