Post #24

Ever think you've gotten more than you bargained for?

In an attempt to understand a relationship that was seemingly crumbling, I learned a great deal about myself. And there are some things I need to change.

Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene. - Arthur Christopher Benson

Granted, its always good to learn about yourself (and others) and strive to constantly improve yourself...but I can't believe I was so blind to how I was acting. Taking a step back, I see how ridiculous it was. And I've been there before, several years ago, but I forced myself to change because of how destructive I was becoming. I could feel myself slipping back into that but it was like I completely lost control and slid all the way back down the mountain I worked so hard to reach the top of.

I am, however, determined to reach the top again. I've done it before and I can do it again.

I don't have nothing to regret at all in the past, except that I might've unintentionally hurt somebody else or something. - Jimi Hendrix

On a different note, my vacation was fantastic. I didn't want to leave, as that meant I would have to face reality again. But I do feel much better, mentally. Ready to take on the obstacles that are in my way at the moment. Camping is so amazing. Getting so close to nature again is really refreshing. It's funny though, how we have houses and cars and the like...yet we will pay money to sleep in a tent on the ground. It's totally worth it though. There's something quite special about getting back into nature like that.

I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man who had no feet. - Ancient Persian Saying

Take care!

Post #23

I haven't updated too terribly much lately. I'm hoping that after my vacation, I'll have a new outlook. Granted, I still have a positive attitude (most of the time) and I greatly enjoy simple things. But I just don't feel inspired to update this. I'm definitely in another funk. And that happens, its normal.

And honestly, numerous times throughout the day I could totally have awesome posts. But I don't like being on the computer much longer than I "need" to be...and when I have sparks of inspiration, I'm not by a computer. I should start writing these things down again. We'll see.

I know there's something waiting for me a thousand miles away. See you soon. Clarity is what I'm looking for.

How's everyone else doing?

Post #22

Sometimes I can't help but laugh at myself because of the odd things I notice throughout the day.

I was just cruising down the street today and I saw this guy in his car, totally rocking out. I immediately started going through the radio stations to see what he could possibly be listening to. The station that I found that seemed to match up was pretty humorous. Some bubbly, pop music. Judging a book by its cover, it shouldn't have matched up as well as it did. Regardless, I couldn't help but cheese out. I'm probably that girl everyone points and laughs at because of how goofy she looks driving solo.

My mom found a photo of me when I was just a little tyke...I was wearing these SWEET sunglasses from the 90s. You know, the ones that are black framed but the bows are neon? Yyyeah. Anyway, I was telling her how much I wished I had a pair these days...and oddly, when I was shopping today I found a pair. Neon sunglasses, FTW: http://www.lambstore.com/sunglasses/pics/neon.jpg

"Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things." - Robert Brault

Take it easy.